welcome back, blogger

i decided that i need to start blogging regularly again. there was a time in my life when the sun rose and set over xanga and everyday i was posting whatever happened to come to mind. over time, my patience waned and a certain level of self-consciousness set in reducing my internet writings to the occasional [understatement of the century] bulletin on myspace. but there is an impermanence to bulletins that i find disconcerting. some of my greatest quips and feats of wordplay came and went, lost amongst so many event announcements, pleas for comments, and invitations to meet the h0tte$t l@d!eZ and obtain L@te$t r!ngt0nes. i thought perhaps facebook would appease my need for public expression but i was mistaken and have thus given in to my mysterious need to articulate each and every thought and feeling that comes to me. this forum will undoubtedly be therapeutic for me personally but i hope it serves to enlighten but more importantly, challenge anyone who happens upon it to examine their own lives as well.

let me make it clear, however, that the kind of self-examination i hope to promote is not one that leads to self-absorption; instead, let it be a means to an end, that end being love, both of God and others. i know that despite all the trappings of hyper analysis, it has served an invaluable purpose in my life; it has helped me to be patient, understanding, slow to anger... the Biblical definitions of love. granted, it has also contributed to my crippled ability to be purely emotional at times, but these are all things i'm working through and i'm sure that future posts will address this particular plight in great detail.

so congratulations on discovering this blog, i hope at the very least it makes you laugh and at its best, it makes you a better person today than you were yesterday.